*Let me preface this post by saying that I am not trying to be a bitch. And I do not believe that everyone wants to hang out with me all the time, because while I do have good qualities, I also have bad ones and that not everyone loves. (I don't see anyone walking around with an I love Teresa shirt) In addition, this post isn't directed at one single person.*
With that said, I feel like I need to get something off my chest. I host things at my house. Sometimes they involve two people other times they involve 40. I love being social and having people over, but it takes a lot out of me (and Nathan) to host a big group of people. I always go overboard with cooking, and the cooking I normally do takes time, LOTS of time. And when that gets magnified to a big group it sometimes takes days for me to prepare to have people over, not just with cooking, but also cleaning and getting the house ready. Plus, when I host more than just a few people, it takes a lot for me to enjoy myself because I feel like I am constantly needing to make sure everyone is ok.
In addition, there is a money factor. Nathan and I spend a big chunk of our budget hosting big and small gatherings. We are happy to do so because we love our friends, but because of this, we have to cut out other things in our lives. So it isn't always easy to make every group bigger.
I think it is obvious that I have made a great group of friends from an online community. I have heard us called a clique, and while I don't love that term, I can understand why people have called us that and feel that way. We became close friends very quickly. And I won't speak for any of them, but these people have become my friends because we have things in common and I truly feel with this group that not only do I make the effort to be their friend, they make the effort with me.
I don't want anyone to feel like I personally exclude them from things, but not everyone can be invited to everything, period. Especially not when it is something that is happening at my home.
I truly hope no one is offended or hurt by this post. It is not meant to be that way. I've just had people ask me why they aren't included on things and I want to clear it up. If you disagree, that's fine and I respect it but I probably won't change the way I host things so that I can keep my sanity and not go broke.